A few months ago, I was walking on the beautiful beaches of Gulf Shores, Alabama, with my husband. We had had a long day playing and decided to take a leisurely stroll as the sun began to set. All around us, giggling children ran around with buckets trying to catch hermit crabs. It was an idealistic moment, one of those times each year that fortifies one until one can get back to the sound and the feel of the ocean or the mountains or the plains.
As we walked, Bob occasionally stopped and looked out towards the ocean. He is a person prone to quiet contemplation, so I choose not to disturb him. But each time he paused, it forced me to pause. Amid our romantic and serene surroundings, I found myself torn between stopping for him and walking on for me. I started to become agitated. So, walk on I did. After a few minutes, I looked back. The sun had set and night had closed in on the beach. I had lost my love.
It occurred to me that night that relationships in recovery are often like that fateful walk on the beach. Two people may meet at the same place. They might start walking in the same direction at the same pace, but eventually, one of them is going to take a pause. Maybe life has become too busy or meetings no longer hold the same appeal. Maybe one of the partners has disengaged from their sponsor.
When that happens, when one lags behind spiritually, the other partner is then forced into making a decision. Either the partner also lags, or else they move forward, going out to meetings, staying accountable to their recovery, and risking outgrowing their partner.
I don’t really have an answer. What I do know is “We feel a man is unthinking when he says that sobriety is enough” (Big Book 82), and “More sobriety brought about by the admission of alcoholism and by the attendance at a few meetings is a very good indeed, but it is bound to be a far cry from permanent sobriety and a contented, useful life… Nothing short of continuous action upon these as a way of life can bring the much-desired results” (Twelve and Twelve 39-40).
So, I ask of you, the readers. How do you traverse this minefield of relationshipal disasterness? How do you keep accountable to each other without being enmeshed in each other’s program? If water finds its own level, how do you keep in homeostasis?
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2 thoughts on “Resting on One’s Laurels”
Good reading .. Although I haven’t found it necessary to get married again or get involved in a relationship in almost 4 years.. The prospective partners need to be solid AAs and long enough acquainted to know that their compatibility at spiritual ,mental and emotional levels is a FACT and not wishful thinking..12n12 P 119 ..
Page 120 is pretty interesting as well ..However, without consistency , things do not tend to work out the way we’d like but with consistency in all areas in relationships on both parts – it does
I really liked today’s “essay” (as in, a “trial”)…Roy and I have spent our lives knowing that I often subjected my “future” to his (we lived where he was Pastor) and yet spreading my wings by taking the consulting jobs which merely required me to live near an airport, not in a particular town. I think it’s working so far! It is true, that I know far more about his work life than he does about mine. But I don’t really care, as long as mine fulfills me.love, Shannon